I wake up, I go to class, I go to work, then back to class. I do something homework… or a lot of homework and then I hang out with my friends with what free time I have left. Since usually my day time is all used by educational matters, I stay up really late to do things that I find to be fun so that I have some balance in my life and as these days catch up with one another, I feel drained, sleep deprived, and just flat out exhausted.
I’ve caught myself looking around my classes, looking at all the people that are doing the same exact thing as me. People that have my same major, that are hoping to have the same job as me and suddenly, I feel very oridinary. I can’t stop my mind from thinking sometimes, that maybe there is supossed to be more to life than this. I want to travel the world, I want to meet different cultures and experince life changing siutations that the majority of people around me do not. Years ago, I went to one of my home countries, Colombia. I climbed “El Penol de Guatape” which is a giant rock, 7,005 ft. high and I remember being at the top of that rock and saying to myself, “Wow, this is life.”
As I’ve gotten older, I ‘ve realized that I don’t have the time to travel that I once had and I can’t afford to take the time because I have things to pay for and school to worry about. Although, my motivation as been slowly decreasing, I also have to remember that my parents have lived their lives working a 9-5 job and they never got the opportunity to pick what they really wanted to do or recieve a college education and I remember that there are so many people in the world that are also not as fortunate to have all the things that I have. I am still finding myself but I am too strong to sit here pitying myself for too long and fail my classes. Until I find my way and myself, I will travel through a successful pathway. When I understand what I am meant to be doing, God will let me know which direction to go. Until then, I strive on.